Blessed. :)

I am just sitting here watching my belly go up and down like waves and thinking about how close I am to my baby. She is RIGHT HERE, less that an inch away from my hands when I touch my stomach, but yet she is still 2 months away...it's so weird to think about. The past couple of weeks, it has hit Wesley and I really hard that it's all really real and there really is a new human coming to live with us and be ours forever!
This past couple of days have been awesome. Yesterday, I win a beach trip to Destin from my work. SO excited and so ready. Wes and I have been trying to pinch our pennies to save all we can to prepare ourselves for Lucy. Of course the summer bug has hit us both and we've talked about taking a trip to the beach, but figured we will just go on a big trip next summer, and continue to save this summer. Low and behold, I feel like God saw the desires of our heart and wanted to hand us a blessing...I was the name drawn for the free beach trip out of about 20 or more other employees. I was cooking when I received the news that I won, and I called Wes in the kitchen and we jumped up and down for a minute...then I got tired. :) Hopefully we will be taking this last trip as "pre-parents" at the end of June. :)

Today, I also worked a half day since we weren't busy at work and I came home to get some school work done. I drive in front of our house and see that we have a big package waiting on me at the front door. Of course I hurried and parked and ran to the front door. (We've been married for almost 3 years and I still get excited to check the mail and get packages at the door!! ) I saw that it was the super cute car seat we registered for at Babies-R-Us! It's the one that they grow into too, so Miss Lucy will be using this one on into her toddler years! Big present and one of those things you register for thinking.."I'm just gonna register for this, but doubt anyone will be feeling THAT generous." Well, I was blessed enough to have an awesome, awesome science teacher at Jeff State a few years ago. Dr. Black. I talk about her all the time and tell people how cool she was and how she honestly cared about her students and she really showed it. Of course, she would be a person to be "that generous." She has a heart as big as Texas, and I am honored that she thought of us and Lucy and blessed us with such a nice gift. So unexpected and completely made my day.

I say all this to give glory to God. I feel He has seen how stressed I have been about getting things ready for Lucy and saving money like a mad man, and decided to hand us a couple of unexpected blessings to let me know that we are going to be okay and I need to just relax and trust Him.

Things are slowly falling into place now. We have begun painting her room...there is a lot more to be done, but it's getting there! I think the beginning of my stressed few days started with picking out the paint colors for her room. Went in thinking it would be easy to pick out 2 different shades of cream (because we are doing stripes on her walls) and boy, I was wrong. It took us forever to decide on 2 colors and I cried the hardest cry I have had in a good while right there in Lowe's. haha Poor Wesley. If he makes it through this pregnancy with me, he will deserve an award for sure.

Sleep is starting to absolutely stink. Last night was the worst night so far. I went to bed at 9:30...woke up to use the bathroom at 12:00. Woke up again at 3:30 to go again. Got back in the bed and just laid there...eyes wide open. Thank goodness for Facebook. It kept me entertained for about 15 mins...Not much is going on on there at that time of the morning. Wes rolled over and I saw that he opened his eyes a little and I took that as an opportunity to talk. I said, "Whatcha doin?" and he said. "Uhh...sleeping."  I said, "You wanna go to Waffle House?!!" and he didn't go for that. :) Rightfully so. I didn't really want Waffle House, I just wanted to get up. :)
 Finally fell back asleep around 4:30 and my lovely alarm went off at 5. :) It's so funny, because normally when I would be woken up in the middle of the night, it would make me ill as all get out. But last night I wasn't ill. It's like I just excepted that this is how its going to be very soon, so I might as well embrace it. I imagined how at that time of night in a few weeks I will be holding my daughter, feeding her and changing her. Thinking about that made me lonesome for her. Like I miss her or something and I don't even know her yet. I just can't wait to meet her. I can't wait to see what she looks like. I can't wait to see if she has blue eyes like her daddy. I can't wait to see if she has hair or bald as an cucumber like me. I can't wait to hear her cry. I can't wait to see her sweet little tummy and her sweet little butt. :) I hope she loves me like I love my mama.
I'm just getting so anxious now. Her movement allllll day long makes me so happy. It's the world's best feeling and this is one of the few times that I'm thankful I am a woman and able to feel this little miracle. This whole pregnancy thing is starting to get really fun. :)